letter to Ali, unsent

A letter unsent. I was really thinking about sending this, but I figured it would get a nasty reaction regardless of the good behind it. Maybe not from her, but from him. I really feel bad about the whole thing still in a way. She seems like such a nice girl.. but she was hurt. Now that he's gone, I'm a little sad too but I know he will be happy someday.

peace--

I'm sure you don't want to hear this, and I know I was asked not to talk to you or whatever previously, but I wanted to say some things to you, and I hope you will give me the chance and the opportunity here and not hate me or get frustrated about this.

Here goes.
I want to say that if for any reason I upset you with anything I said regarding Andrew, I'm deeply sorry.
I understand how much it probably hurt you... because I feel that he's wonderful too.. and now I'm experiencing the same pain. That man has a glow about him somewhere deep down, but close to the surface at the same time. He's an amazing person, and I never meant to hurt anyone by seeing him, even if it was unintentional.

I envy the fact that you are so close, and can at least have him nearby as a friend and confidante. I wanted to tell you that I think you are beautiful. From what I've read on your page, and from the way that he talks about you, I know that you have to be awesome too.

I think on other circumstances, perhaps we could have been friends as well. I still would like the opportunity to get to know you a bit more if you would let me. Even if its just sitting there (virtually prolly) talking about how much fun we had with Andrew.

message me if you would like to chat- or even to just tell me to talk a long walk off a short pier.

With the kindest regards... happy birthday fair lady. you are beautiful-
Jena