listless lists

I was feeling a bit bored, so I decided to write this. This is a work in progress, but here's what I have so far.
In no particuliar order...

matierial girl-

• sewing machine
• laptop
• couch
• a plasma
  
• a sidekick 3 (cell phone)
• a really good digital camera
• a Nintendo Wii
• an old school NES power pad
• a house
• dual SLI boards
• 30+inch LCD screens for my computer
  
• a warehouse building with an old fashioned elevator (hard to explain, but to get an idea- the elevator from Wayne's world)
• a loft/warehouse/house
• makeup
• a tripod
• bounce flash
• misc studio photography equipment- box lights, spots, backdrops,etc
• new shoes
• new shirts
• new dresses
• shades
• pinball machines
• frames for photos
• Pop art prints
• full arcade versions of DDR, and other type of music games
• Full arcade version of Cruisin' USA, and other titles with seats moving like it
• full arcade version of surfer, skateboarding, snowboarding,wakeboard, jetski games
• designer toys
• a photo developer
• a drum machine
• a synthesizer
• a violin
• a cello
  
• a harp
  
• a place to develop my own prints that I can use at anytime
• a kimono
  

(yes I know some of those are pretty general, but oh friggin well)


to learn-

• to swim good enough to...
• to surf
• PATIENCE!!
  
• photoshop
• html
• to write the codeing for blogging/myspace
• other ways how to do my makeup
• programming (C++)
• fruiti-loops (MIDI)
• rock climbing
• to fly- small engine airplane
• to skateboard
• (dirtbike) moto-X
• to drive a motorcycle
• to ride a unicycle
• to play the drums
• complex origami (birds anyone?)
• how to design handbags, shoes, and other accessories
• to ride a horse (equestrian style)
• to hang glide
• to parasail
• to sail a sailboat
• to drive a boat
• to make objects/sims
• to screenprint
• to make Japanese pastries
• to make woodblock prints
• how to get up on that damn wakeboard
• to make fantastic looking cakes
• industrial design
• to speak Japanese
• to speak French
• to speak Chinese
• to read Kanji, Hiragana, and Katakana
• to play violin
• to play the cello
• a harp
• to play a shamisen (Japanese pluck string instrument)
  
• to play guitar
• to learn how to make my own podcasts (and not just dummy ones)
• video editing
  

to see-

• a sunset far enough out in the ocean, that you can just barely see the shore
• the pipeline comps
• the X Games
• Japan
• England
• myself in a $4000+ outfit
• myself toned
• my husband in excellent shape- besides round that is
• my daughter becoming a woman/my sons becoming men
• a volcano errupt
• my name in lights
• my hands where audrey and marilyn put them, over in Holly
• the inside of a Hindu Temple
• The vatican
• Notre Dame Cathedral
• Walt Whitman's grave
  

someday-

• to be a lead singer in a band
• to have an awesome job
• to own a house near the beach (and not just in Guam)
• to not have to worry about money
• to being able to wear ALL designer labels
• to seeing my children suceed
• to pay for a luxury car in cash
• to skydive
• to go base jumping
• to paint portraits
• to draw better
  

I fear-

• getting older
• looking older
• failure
• new beguinnings
• being rejected
• doing everything possible, but nothing good coming about it
• karma
• the message in Saw
• my husband dieing
• anything horrible involving my children
• not being there when my friends need me
• my father and my brother passing away
• my grandparents passing away
• not being able to fit in
• fitting in too well
• my own desires
• the wrath of God
• getting my first tatoo
• drowning
• sharks
• roaches
  

I wish that-

• I could tell everyone exactly what I think,exactly when I think it, without having to worry about anyone getting hurt
• that my kids behaved all the time
• that my friends lived closer
  
• I never had to grow older if I didn't want to
• I could make friends locally more easily
• I know how he really felt about me
• I could erase the past
• I could fast forward, pause, and rewind life
• I could read minds
• I could change assholes into being better boyfriends
• I could cure my friends' broken hearts
• I could make that guy get a job
• I could MAKE someone accountable for their own actions
• I could fly and have superpowers, like mind control and x-ray vision
• I had a damn cook and a maid (and I don't just mean Andre)
• school could get done faster
• me and my sister got along
• my cousins would change for the better- and grow up already
• I was closer to some other members of my family
• my dad lived closer
• it wasn't so damn expensive to live here
• I could win the lottery
• I could afford all the toys I wanted
• I knew I was the only one
• I could pick better people for my friends to date
• I could make everything all better...

I dream about-

• a career in broadcast journalism
• being the host of a video gaming show
• designing my own clothes
• making an awesome video game
• how beautiful my daughter will be when she gets older
• that warehouse loft that I've always wanted
• surfing in Tahiti
• walking on a black sand beach
• that big wedding that I always wanted
• a different life...
• that tatoo I'm thinking of getting
• everyone just getting along
• an utopian society
• never having to worry about money again
• that nice car
• shooting ads for designer labels
• seeing my name in the credits of an awesome game