Yahoo Messenger

I wish they had this for AIM... just another incentive to use yahoo eh?

Yet ANOTHER visitor comes in to town...

Well I just got a call that I'm going to be having company again in about a week. I'm kind of stoked about it, but still...

It's been one vacation after another. Geez, I need a vacation from people's vacations!

I can't say that I'm not a bit relieved that Andre is back at work. It was great having him home, but in a way, I was even more so inclined to be lazy. So what may u ask have we been up to? Not too much actually. We needed the time to relax. Yeah right lol

The temptation of North Shore is looking more and more inviting as the time goes by. I only wish I was able to escape the guilt of going by myself. I honestly doubt that my conscious could handle that kind of pressure. I don't know.. if I listened to Depeche Mode, I'd just go since I want to.
LOL
Arrg its frustrateing

EQ Beta is In! (And other assorted gaming blah blah blah)

Well, Anj got the call, and the beta should be here anytime now! Now we have the problem of getting this highly anticipated lil thing up and running in time for launch. I dont know if I said this b4, and if I did most of you probably weren't dorky enough to care, but right now, we are behind the times sad to say. Alas! Anj built this thing pre-me, so the poor girl is getting old. Optimally, we would replace the vid card, and add some more ram, as well as probably do a whole system wipe just to make sure we dont have any damn spyware. Of course, this isnt probably going to happen... especially since I have been doing a lot of work on my Sims (mostly just making custom clothing lines.. he he), and I'm not about to lose all the hours of toodleing that I've been doing.

This month is going to be a drain on our pocketbook, as soooo many things are coming out now. Thankfully, Anj is supposed to get a free copy of Halo 2, as well as a DS. While I'm stoked with all the new little toys to keep me busy, part of me is a little sad. Andre's working his ass off to make all of this possible, and yet here I am reaping all the benefits. It's not fair to him. So here comes this damn thing called a conscience (something I must confess, I really shouldn't think so much as a crutch- but in this instance, it is...) to come and screw things up for me.

See, Andre's friend offered me a p/t job this week... making 10/hr... doing telemarketing...
Whats the problem then you ask? Well, to be honest, I hate sales; telemarketing especially. But unfortunately, it seems to be incredibly easy for me. And what's worse is that these types of jobs seem to be falling into my lap. I PROMISED myself that I was not going to make a career out of sales, but part of me is honestly starting to believe that maybe that's what I'm supposed to do. I hate this pressure. I know we could definately use the extra money. Plus it pays weekly. If I had started this week like was offered, that would have been an extra $200 that we wouldve had to buy what we need for EQ2. ARRG! I'm stuck what do I do?

A biiig kiss goodbye... awww we lub u too

Waving goodbye:( sooo sad

boob shot! j/k

I wuv my auntie Manda

coming back down.. bummer:)

Upside down!

Trying to think positive about the void across the hall...

It figures that just when you do finally meet some decent people, they end up having to move! My friends (our now former neighbors) had to move back to their native TX on the 8th. So y then am i just now finally posting about this? If you've read any of my previous posts the past few days, you will see that I've been incredibly busy!
Anj and I are debateing on weather or not it's in the budget to go to the upcoming Morrissey concert next month in TX since the show out here in SD got CANCELLED! ARRR! But! It would work out ok anyway probably; because now we could go and visit them as well.
I never did get to have a drink with Amanda... as you know, I had to watch her and Anj get tipsy while I was pregnant. Not fun for me- I'm never the dd... but luckily I didn't have to be since they lived right across from us anyway.

Still, it kinda urks me a bit that I never did get that opportunity. So, even if we don't go there for the concert, we're going to try and make a point of it sooner or later.
Amanda and Tommy were just such great friends- it sux that they're gone. I haven't had that much fun with my friends in a long time.. I was honestly about to give up on meeting decent people in CA. Anj just has all the luck- people are just drawn to him. Maybe its because he's uber nice... or maybe its just because he's so gullible and he'd be a seemingly easy target. I don't know. I love the man, so hey why not everyone else right? Bah!

I think we may get some new neighbors soon... I heard some people possibly looking through their apartment already. I think it's crazy that they might fill that place that quick. I just hope these next people are as cool as they were... but only time will tell I guess eh?(

a lil' post visit jitters

5 more cups of coffee and a long walk later, and all is back to norman again here. We ultimately came to the conclusion that we had a little bit of leftover tension from the hectic weeks that have preceeded.

In the past few weeks, as you know we've: had our first child together, had Ethan's 2nd bday to celebrate, my mom came to visit for a week, 3 days-3 trips to the airport, etc etc.
whew!

The phone has been ringing off the hook with family and friends calling to congratulate us; and that's great. Anj took the first weekend off he's ever had since he's started working there almost a yr ago- and it was non stop up and going for him. We had very little time to relax; which was supposed to be the reason why my mom was coming in the first place. We were taking her all around town and showing her around, doing errands, cleaning the house, etc etc. NON STOP:) It was nice for her to be here; but honestly we were both a little bit relieved to see her go.
Mom, I love you btw:)
Well, Anj has been having some probs at work w one of his employees lately, so the stress was just amplified for him in another regard.

We both agreed that especially after this visit (and it wasn't just my mom either- it would've been the same even if the situation were reversed; no offense to anyone seriously) that our house is our sanctuary; and that we probably could never have another roomate again. Our privacy and the quality family time (for us it's relaxing) is just too important to us to share.

Mom asked us if we wanted to go out while she was here, and that she'd be glad to watch the kids so that we could have some time to ourselves.. but there was honestly nowhere that either of us wanted to be except home with the kids. One of my friends back home called me "domesticated," but I don't think that's true. And if it is a little bit- so what right? This is not the days of the 50s, where I'd just be doing what's stereotypical and "popping out kids and mooching off my husband" as was so blantantly put by an unnamed source. I really do enjoy being home with the kids... I'm past that point in my life where I have to go out and binge drink and party and do all that kid's stuff crap to try and make myself happy. I really believe that I am happy. I've realized what's really important in life; and I don't care what people that don't have kids of their own have to say because a)they don't know what it's like and b)they can't possibly understand until they have kids of their own.

so, as I said everything's finally back to norman.. there's finally an aura of peace settling in my house- i just hope that it's contagious

Venting

well the next post after the pic w me and Amanda was originally supposed to be about her moving, but I guess I'll have to get to that later; because I have to vent right now.
Why is it that whenever you're depressed about something that all the sadest songs come on? ARRG! The person that solves this mysterious phenomonon will be rich I tell ya, cuz it fucking baffles me beyond all fucking comprehension.
O yeah I'm pissed too if you haven't figured that out. I myself try and shide away from ignorant profane wordage in my blogs, but right now I'm near the brink of strangling someone (and no I don't mean literally)
Men can be so blind to obvious signals sometimes it's ridiculous. I'm now almost near positive that the only intelligent men left out there in this world must be gay. (no offense, in fact gays are among the best people i know nowadays)
As we speak, I've been throwing out subtle and not so subtle signals to the latter, yet he fails to realize or even acknowledge that perhaps something is wrong and that maybe something should be done-- dare i say talk? But noooo of course not. That would just be the easy thing to do wouldnt it?
For those of you that have had the pleasure of meeting me irl (jk... im nothing special anyway;)
you know that for me to keep my mouth shut for an extended period of time is uncharacteristic. Therefore, logically, something must be wrong right? You would think that someone who wants to supposedly spend the rest of their life with you would also be wise to this type of behavior by now right? No, see this is the male species for you. It reminds us that we all evolved from apes; and that women just seemed to evolve more in some regards than others.
It's frustrateing.
And what's more frustrateing is that I'm one of those people that doesn't believe in going to bed angry and in the middle of an arguement... so I'm being rather contradictory and yes fickle like a woman (o yes we do have our drawbacks, admit it ladies) and forceing myself to stay awake through cups of coffee, stress, and a long day with taking care of the kids in hopes that the love of my life will just acknowledge the problem and hug me- show any sign of life and that he still cares so i can go to sleep in peace.
maybe if i leave this post here, he'll see it and come to his senses... or at least one could hope
arr.. well, i guess it's going to be a long night, and I have to make another pot of coffee.. im just glad that my family isnt going to be coming into town after all...

Amanda and Me the day she had to move back:(

Biiig Yawn Monkey Face

With his Paci

Hehwoah... Maddox!)

Well, the day after my last post, Maddox was born.

Maddox Conner Giannerini-Paulino

was born on October 1, 2004 @8:50pm

weighing 7 pounds, 5.11 ounces

and measuring 20 1/4 inches at
Sharp Grossmont Hospital in La Mesa, CA.

to Jennifer Giannerini and Andre Paulino

There are tons of pix of the kids in my other blog
http://hehwoah.blogspot.com

That blog is devoted completely to the kids, so if you want to see pix, you can go there:)